Upon waking

(This is another found poem from the Brother word processor years of 1995 – 1999. My guess is this was written towards the first half of that period.)

 

I woke this morning

from a year long sleep.

Now I rest no more.

I woke up from a midnight clear.

I woke up in a daze –

a haze.

I woke up feeling blue,

as Elmore James sang of going back home.

It all seemed relevant,

didn’t it?

Didn’t it all seem grand?

A day like no other.

A day in the sand.

At the beach.

What a peach…of a day.

A fucking peach of a day.

I sat up all hours thinking of everything;

changing nothing;

just sitting her alone in deep thought.

I don’t know how to explain it

I can’t really tell if it is working at all.

How would I know?

Who the hell really cares?

I don’t know

I get stuck down in things I can’t explain.

I get stuck in the middle of nowhere.

I get stuck in the middle of thought.

Sometimes

I get lost.

7-7-97

(Another poem found in the annals of my Brother word processor years. Who knows when this was originally drafted.)

 

Poetry runs

                    through

                                my

                                    fingertips.

Music plays

                    in

                     my

                         brain.

I cannot explain.

Is it joy?

Is it pain?

Will it be sunny?

Will it be rain?

I cannot tell you.

I cannot say.

We can say we will live forever.

We can take it day by day.

But, isn’t it all the same?

Today may be eternity.

Tomorrow may be the last.

But…

I cannot say.

I will not say.